wierd weekend....... infact the past week itself has been wierd!
on the one hand, i have been able to start clearing the clutter in my brain, and taking things in the positive stride, adopting a new approach...... AND on the other hand, my results get announced and, well, not surprising, i do not clear!
But, i am not really, down in the dumps....... simply because, i realised that miracles dont happen..... yup, me passing would have been nothing short of a miracle..... and since that did not take place, my belief in hard work has only strengthened!
this may sound really wierd, but i am happy, that i flunked! seriously! i mean, it has given me an opportunity to excel.... its a blessing in disguise! 'coz, with my current state of mind, if i had cleared, it would have meant, a new change.....and i know, i am not ready for it!
Ofcourse, everyone else i know, cleared..... :) but, the point i always make is, my journey is MINE! and if, my pace is slow, its OK, i mean, im confident of doing what i want, and somehow, my morale is helping me, reach there...... and deff the fact that i have yet not achieved what i want, just indicates one thing for me - i have yet quite some things to learn, before, i achieve what i want!
on the upside, well, i am almost excited and pumping with energy, to start studies again..... and give it my best shot! there is a wierd, almost power giving high, in achieving something, being the dark horse and racing ahead opf others, who feel you are down in the dumps..... and trust me, i luv that feeling.... just hope i am not addicted to that cycle!!!!
And yea, other thing, well, met a person, i had given unnecessary importance in my life, for quite sometime, and you know, how we always feel, when someone is no longer a part of your life..... abt "what if..", "how i wish...", etc.... well, that came to an end! because one look at him, and i knew i was a blessed child to not have him, as a part of my life anymore!
Phew, enough for now, got a couple of more stuff going on in my mind, hopefully, will post them laters!