snob... me?!

The best part of the whole experience is that it happened right NOW!

Like every Saturday, I left my work place to visit my grandmother for lunch. As I left the office building, I saw a group of three extremely well dressed and stylish females walking a little ahead of me. As our group approached the main exit gate I noticed a Black Merc coming to a halt outside the gate. Assuming it to be there for the three ladies (Merc for me, yea rite! ) …. I quietly surpassed them, came out and got in to a stationary auto rickshaw.

The driver gave me a dazed look, turned back and started the vehicle, asking me for my destination. Then he quietly looked towards the entrance. I followed his gaze to see the three ladies pointing at me, and probably swearing me to death!!

… I had actually snubbed them without even realising it, by getting into a vehicle probably called by them!! Sheesh… it was like winning a lottery without even realising you had a ticket!... ok ok, may be I should stop being so mean and reading too much in to all this… but the whole theory of presumptions and assumptions based on appearance, in a reverse manner, actually had truly left me feeling funny!!


FYI: This is my 50th "published" post... so glee

Relationships....

As I sit to write this piece on relationships, it’s amazing to know the sort of inputs that my mind is giving me. Twenty two years of existence in a human society bonded by relations that create, define and even have the power to destroy you, makes me wonder, what is a relationship?

The easiest answer would be: to each his own. I agree that all of us have a perspective that is unique to our surroundings and our observations of the society. Yet at the end of the day, there surely has to be some common thread that binds each of our views…. Don’t we all love our parents? Wish to be married and want kids and a family; want a friend who is there in our times of need? The answer to this unique similarity that each of us share is the question that arises in my mind the most… what are relations?

For me, a relationship, between two individuals was always more about how they bonded, and shared, be as friends; relatives or even enemies (don’t enemies share a common hatred towards the other?) But as I experience more people and different relations, I understand that at the end of the day, for any individual, a relationship is not about two people, but about just one … me! It is precisely my actions, thoughts and attitude that determine the relation I would be sharing with the other person. If I choose to trust someone, forgive another, or simply possess a callous attitude towards the third, isn’t it the determining force of the nature of the relation I could be sharing with that person? Yes, my attitude and thoughts would be affected, as any other human beings, on the actions and supposed intention of the other person, not to mention the difference that two distinct backgrounds could make in any relation, but at the end of the day, isn’t the conscious awareness that accompanies our action deciding the status of our relation?

For a person like me, who has few close and truly cherished friends and relations in my personal life, (I don’t dislike the rest – am unable to hate someone; I just cannot find common ground with them) each relation I have shared with any human, in whatever capacity, be it a daughter, a sister, a friend, a colleague or even a plain well wisher, it has been a process of self discovery. Every time a conflict or a situation arises, and my immediate reaction, towards the other persons’ thoughts, actions or even the situation itself, has been an eye opener in understanding what sort of a person I am by nature. Quite a few times, I have surprised myself, not only with delight, but a few times, in shame. I may not be able to change a few of my inhibitions and innate qualities, but being aware of them has only made me realize, how much there is to improve in me as a person!

The reason I am writing this piece is partly known only by four people I am close to, while the other half, I am as yet figuring out! Yet I would really appreciate it, if any rather all of you, drop in a word telling me about your perspective on relations…. Would really love to hear your views!!

Rachana

Yahoo smileys on Orkut!

Well, for anyone, who is as jobless as my friend "A" and is into so called "innovation"... here is the link, for inserting Yahoo smileys on Orkut (and many other Google applications!)

http://siddzlingdude17.googlepages.com/yahooicons.html

Who ever is the creator of this idea.... thx a ton, dude!

I'll be there for you! :)

I do have a lot to write on the complex modern relationships, we have formed for our own selves. Yet when I ponder (and Google a bit too) quite a few people have written some beautiful gems, that actually touch a chord in your heart, so beautiful, you are rendered speechless (that’s exactly, what I am feeling now)

Here are a few that made me shut up !!

Man is a knot into which relationships are tied. ~Antoine de Saint-Exupéry, Flight to Arras, 1942, translated from French by Lewis Galantière

Remember, we all stumble, every one of us. That's why it's a comfort to go hand in hand. ~Emily Kimbrough

Oh, the comfort - the inexpressible comfort of feeling safe with a person - having neither to weigh thoughts nor measure words, but pouring them all right out, just as they are, chaff and grain together; certain that a faithful hand will take and sift them, keep what is worth keeping, and then with the breath of kindness blow the rest away. ~Dinah Craik, A Life for a Life, 1859 [THAT’S my fav !! ]

Assumptions are the termites of relationships. ~Henry Winkler

You can kiss your family and friends good-bye and put miles between you, but at the same time you carry them with you in your heart, your mind, your stomach, because you do not just live in a world but a world lives in you. ~Frederick Buechner

Are we not like two volumes of one book? ~Marceline Desbordes-Valmore

Trouble is part of your life, and if you don't share it, you don't give the person who loves you enough chance to love you enough. ~Dinah Shore

Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some stay for a while, leave footprints on our hearts, and we are never, ever the same. ~Flavia Weedn, Forever, © Flavia.com

Lots of people want to ride with you in the limo, but what you want is someone who will take the bus with you when the limo breaks down. ~Oprah Winfrey

Soul-mates are people who bring out the best in you. They are not perfect but are always perfect for you. ~Author UnknownPeople change and forget to tell each other. ~Lillian Hellman

Once the realization is accepted that even between the closest human beings infinite distances continue, a wonderful living side by side can grow, if they succeed in loving the distance between them which makes it possible for each to see the other whole against the sky. ~Rainer Maria RilkeYou cannot be lonely if you like the person you're alone with. ~Wayne W. Dyer

I WANT TO .....

Visit those beautiful memories from the past…

Make even better memories for my future…..

Remember what it was like to be incredibly happy....

To laugh my head out over something that is remotely funny

Cry uncontrollably over something trivial, and have someone console me….

Talk about the pettiness and the complexities of life… talk my heart out, with some one who listens...

Pack everything up and make a trip down to OZ….

Smell the wet mud in the first rain…. And get drenched in it !!

I want to take a ride with the wind running through my unruly hair….

Smile at strangers and make someone's day...

Give Life a chance to make me happy...

Believe in those fairy tales...

Sing before an audience, without a worry...

Scream my lungs out standing in the middle of the road...

Act crazy.... Be ME !

FEEL ALIVE !

Eight things not many people know about me

I got a tag, which i really had no mood to answer... and hence, i passed it on to Purnima, Tejaswini and Shantala... while two of them answered it beautifully, Shantala dared me to answer it first... (these MBA types, i tell you... are experts in blackmailing !!... hee hee)

But nevertheless... here i go, answering a tag I wish i could skip :P

First: I am really a moody person! My mood swings range from extreme joy and happiness (coupled with craziness) to gloomy and depressive times, where i may just refuse to get out of my shell! And i am yet to figure out how and when could i get a mood swing!... and when you add up my sensitveness with it... its one helluva deadly combination (that's where i get the "brat" tag from)

Second: My mind has a mind of its own... no kidding! i usually have three to four things going on in my mind almost at the same time... due to which having a conversation with me, on only one topic is almost an impossibility, at times.. (it changes when the topic discussed is food or something s;-))

Third:I have an opinion on everything! Yess i do... and i usually have an unnecessary urge to speak my mind, which usually does land me in a not so favorable position (if u may say so)... So wheteher there is a discussion on Himmesh or the Iraq war, I will have something to say... (whether i say it or not, is quite a different matter altogether!)

Fourth: I can't fake it i am a straight talker, and not many people appreciate it, but i am not sorry for it either! I could be diplomatic, when i know a person may be sensitive to my style of talking, or when s/he is a stranger, but otherwise.. i'd rather speak my mind and have you curse me for it, than butter you up, and claim to be a "good" person! (In short, i aint nice!!)

Fifth: I am unashamedly biased... about people, friends, where i come from, etc ! I believe we have certain leanings and likings, and i chose to accept it... though i do appreciate others views too, but i would always favour things and people i hold dear (sans question)... and this is pretty visible, when it comes to my friends... hee hee hee!

Sixth: Two of my basic traits include instinctive-ness and conviction!. I can do rather uncharacteristic things, in the spur of a moment, because i feel so.. like, i may end up trusting someone completely at the first meeting itself, truly out of my conviction (and this is clearly the case when it comes to friendships and relations).

Seventh: I can be quite a loner at times, and a craver for company, at other times. I am perfectly happy spending a day with myself, sorting out my life and thoughts, not stepping out of the house, even if its on fire! ... and sometimes, i have this stupid urge to be around people and experience the worldly ways, and not go home at all...lol. I can be lost in my thoughts for hours, and yet sometimes, it's really difficult to shut me up!!... i guess it stems from the moodiness in my nature!

Eighth: I can discuss and convey my opinions, my views and ideas very easily. But when it comes to expressing emotions... you can call me a bigtime loser... heheh!! Very few people know what and how i "feel" about certain things and people and even about themselves! I just can't get myself to be vulnerable enough to express my emotions before people... that's just so not me! Yet, everytime i sit to write (not blog) these things pour out by the dozen... probably my only way of self expression!

Ninth*: I doubt i would have liked myself, if i were a different person!!....... hee hee hee... so real kudos to all those who silently suffer the torture called as rachana... thanks ppl! :D

*Just for kicks... was fed up of such seriousness