The more lost you are the more you have to look forward to. So what do you know? I'm having a great time and I don't even know it.
....................Midway into a conversation........................
She: ... so, what are you so proud about?
Me: mmm... I guess, am proud of the fact that I am happy! (flashing a smile)
She: (raised eyebrows)... really?!!... oh, so you are satisfied with your life?... contented?... at peace??... (snigger)
Me: .... satisfied, maybe partly.... contented.... hell NO!!!.... at peace... oh sure!!! (some more smile)
She: What do you mean?....
Me: Well, am sure ambitious.... and that is why I am happy....
She: (cutting in).... can’t get you.... come again! (puzzled look on face)
Me:... naah, forget it... you have to learn it your own way.... (wink)
.... and we continue our shoe shopping!!
*touch wood* !!
Memory is a way of holding onto the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose. ~From the television show The Wonder Years
A memory is what is left when something happens and does not completely unhappen –Edward De Bono
What do you do when you have had so much fun, memories and experience that no matter how hard you try, it is impossible to put it in words?!!...
Here, at this beautiful occasion of the monthiversary (yeah, it’s a word... Google says so!) of meeting my RSMTP Friends, there is SOOOOOOOO much I can recount! So many things, I want to share, thank them for, express to the world.... but words fail me! Probably for the first time, I have sat to blog with a head full of ideas and I can’t find the words to bring them to life!
So, when I think, what should I chose to put into words here about these wonderfully crazy, kind and beautifully insane 32 people I met, for the first time on 10th September 2009 and spent 17 wild days with, at the ICSI-CCRT campus in Belapur, befriending them and making sooooooooooo many beautiful memories, I can’t seem to pick and choose! Should I chose to speak about the fun-filled Board Meeting we had.... how we played musical chairs, red hands, titli udee, tug-of-war, etc till 4 am and slept at the 7 am Yoga sessions..... or the way we were at our rowdy best for the Mock CLB and AGM sessions, or about how we used to dance till 2 am, singing songs aloud, because we lacked a good and loud music system, or how we would keep ourselves awake through abysmally boring lectures by smsing each other, giving missed calls to those who had managed to fall asleep, write notes and chits full of world gyan and unnecessary crap and passing it on to whoever cared to read, exchanging harmless gossip about anyone and everyone, yet staying together all throughout....watching the sky as the night went by.... looking out for each other at every stage, getting scared together for the project presentations, yet egging each other on, throwing surprise Birthday party for one of our batchmates at 12 am, cutting a cake, because it was the birthday of another batch mate’s fiancé, planning to go see places, and landing up at Reliance Fresh ever evening after having Pani Puri, keeping nick names, learning and getting inspired from one another, going to the la-di-dah places and ripping it apart (mentally) with much fan fare.... fighting the common enemy (u know what I mean ;) ) teasing each other, clicking snaps (err, you have NO clue what this obsession could reach to – 4000 odd snaps, 100 odd videos and still counting), clapping at everything and everyone.... and breaking rules (and we broke so many of them.... it stopped being funny!... lol).... and so so many more?!!
I can’t chose one, I can chose all..... but no one can understand what those experience meant to me, to each of us, actually.... on what we gained, what we found, and what we didn’t lose! The memories are truly special, close to our hearts and will continue to remain so.... We still exchange emails everyday (Close to 100 on an average), meet as often as possible (or make plans atleast), share each others’ concerns, worries and happiness and stay connected.... with each other, with our hearts and with those memories, which we just can’t seem to get off from our brains and heads!
These 17 days have given me much much more than what I had expected or bargained for! They will not return, but what is left behind is a crazy clan of 33 people hanging on to each other and the memories of those days and looking out for one another in this big bad world!
THANK YOU EACH ONE OF YOU!.... THANK YOU VERY VERY MUCH
*and now you may chose to clap!!*....
“Every Action always has an equal and opposite reaction” – Isaac Newton
Relations are really like an outstretched rubber band! To snap it, or to use it, it has to be handled in the same manner at both the ends. If both sides are pulled, it snaps… if both sides keep it steady, it stays on…. And if one side keeps pulling, while the other side does nothing, it will still snap! But then, it’s not the other side breaking it, it’s the force of the snapping side itself acting against it, while all you are doing then is watching the band break itself…..
So, what do you do then?... Do you tell the other side, to stop pulling? Do you start pushing or pulling; depending on what you think is right then?? Or do you just watch it break?
Maybe, just maybe…. It’s better to let nature take it’s own course… don’t you think?
Anyways, the movie I saw was a sweet and a very typical ‘chick-flick’ called Bride Wars! Now, before you smirk and judge me, let me tell you, it’s the sort of movie I would secretly watch on Star Movies, and never admit it (heck, I just did!!), but I couldn’t have found a better movie to watch with my best friend! Also, it’s a very ‘in-the-right-frame-of-mind’ movie, if you are not feeling ‘girlie’ enough (don’t ask me what that’s to mean), this would be a bore, cardboard cut out of any other movie from the same genre!
Without giving away too much, let me tell you what the movie does have – two cute ‘best friends’, gorgeous almost-perfect boyfriends & secret lovers, and loads of emotional and funny moments* and thankfully, the movie DOESN’T HAVE is a vamp, a love triangle and unnecessary drama! A perfect watch for all you girls out there before you start your stressful and hectic week! And for heaven’s sake, leave the poor guys out of this one, because, they won’t have a clue what is so funny, when two friends meet to bitch about someone, or what is so touching when one of them decides to do something ‘awwwwww’ for another!
The movie has a simple message – some relations and friendships are forever, don’t let your ego get in the way, because you would be doing as much damage to yourself, as to the other person and the relation! Reminds my college professor’s words, which I cherish till date – is your friendship/ relation so frail and cheap that something so simple can break it? Alternatively, do think when you give something as much importance to let it affect your view and assumption on someone, if it’s all really worth it?... really, is it?
* applicable only for giggling girls...
oh, also, i know this post totally makes me sound like a dumb blonde, but let me tell you, the black's an original!
Meredith Grey: Maybe we like the pain. Maybe we're wired that way. Because without it, I don't know; maybe we just wouldn't feel real. What's that saying? Why do I keep hitting myself with a hammer? Because it feels so good when I stop.
It can get confusing! When you have no clue where you are headed! When you have something to be happy about, but you really don’t know how to celebrate that happiness, because mentally and emotionally, you have already removed yourself far from this task which may be the reason for celebrations.
Its like, you have already moved on, and someone is trying to hold you back!
Or is it because I just don’t value the reason enough?
Or may be you just don’t get what the whole point is, or maybe its just another thing for you (but honestly, it is not, because had the result not turned positive, I would have been affected, and pretty badly at that!)
May be I just don’t know what to do, or how I am supposed to deal with it… have taken the break, got back to routine and told everyone who mattered and care, how lucky and happy I am, for the result and for them and all that jazz….
But then, why am I not smiling? :