Meredith Grey: Maybe we like the pain. Maybe we're wired that way. Because without it, I don't know; maybe we just wouldn't feel real. What's that saying? Why do I keep hitting myself with a hammer? Because it feels so good when I stop.
It can get confusing! When you have no clue where you are headed! When you have something to be happy about, but you really don’t know how to celebrate that happiness, because mentally and emotionally, you have already removed yourself far from this task which may be the reason for celebrations.
Its like, you have already moved on, and someone is trying to hold you back!
Or is it because I just don’t value the reason enough?
Or may be you just don’t get what the whole point is, or maybe its just another thing for you (but honestly, it is not, because had the result not turned positive, I would have been affected, and pretty badly at that!)
May be I just don’t know what to do, or how I am supposed to deal with it… have taken the break, got back to routine and told everyone who mattered and care, how lucky and happy I am, for the result and for them and all that jazz….
But then, why am I not smiling? :