Dec 1, 2007
what seemed like a turn for the better ended up being one such tide.... sudden, rude and shakening!!
maybe something better is awaiting... or... hell, who knows what happens next!! and am definately not interested in knowing either!!!
Hope this ends sooner...
Hope i can clear all the exams life sets before me.... literally and otherwise :)
Nov 14, 2007
Nov 10, 2007
I am talking of Fyodor Dostoyevsky's short story - White Nights... published in 1848 and supposedly the book based on which Bhansali made the movie.
Let's leave the movie aside for a while here... let me tell you what the book is all about. It's a story of an unnamed young man (yes, the protagonist has no name) who, by nature of being a shy, introvert and self confessed dreamer, meets and falls in love and even encounters heart brake in the course of four nights! you can call it a simple love triangle or a sad tragic drama… which ever way you look at it, the basic plot is way too simple to be understood! However, what actually does set the book apart, and might have caught on SLB’s attention is the treatment or rather the way in which the story is narrated and how the protagonist’s angst and anguish, his shy demeanor and complex emotions are highlighted, making him more human and realistic, than many other “heroes” we come across in the literary world!
It’s a touching tale alright, but every good book, unfortunately cannot be a great movie! Or rather most books should not be made into a movie, for the simple reason that, unlike in books, where the words tend to take the shape of the story, depending on the reader’s imagination prowess, movies, usually, leave nothing for imagination, making everything too obvious, and may I add a tad bit frivolous!
(and going by the reviews I read in the morning papers, and all across the net, Bhansali has left no stone unturned to make this ‘personal, intrinsic and deep’ story into a commercial and “bollywood” movie…. HOPE I AM PROVED WRONG!)
Here are some links on White Nights –
-The E-book (although bit summarized, and I prefer the paper version :P) http://www.geocities.com/diwakerr/whitenights.html
-A beautiful commentary on the book (BIT TOO LONG!) http://www.storybites.com/dostoevskynights.htm
Nov 6, 2007
Oct 12, 2007
Oct 11, 2007
why do we find ourselves doling out advice to those questions, for which we struggle to find answers?
why are we expected to be so capable of doing things, we almost always struggle with?
what would life be, if we knew all its answers? more imortantly, why do we face questions, whose answers we never know? and if we did know all the answers, would we still face all these questions?
WHY ON EARTH AM I TYPING AND POSTING THESE QUESTIONS???
[might not make sense to anyone... i doubt it will to me, after some time.... but i need to get this out!.... so this is a NO COMMENTS post :)]
Oct 8, 2007
|You Are Rocky Road Ice Cream|
You are most compatible with vanilla ice cream.
AS A DESSERT....
|You Are a Brownie|
AND MY AHEM, AHEM...INTELLIGENCE.... (CONSIDERING, I HAVE ONE, IS...)
|Your Dominant Intelligence is Intrapersonal Intelligence|
Reflective and thoughtful, you enjoy spending time alone.You are good at analyzing yourself - and knowing your true feelings.Totally self aware, you are in tune with your dreams and desires.A spiritual and philopsophical person, your inner calmness inspires and helps others.
okie, before i conclude wanna tell u all that the crazy website where u can do more such stuff is http://www.blogthings.com [ cant place a seperate link to each quiz, since my blogger is creating trouble for me].... go ahead and tell me ur own results :)
So, here goes the Website's "prediction" about yours truly.....
Loyal and generous: Well yea… deff loyal….lets just keep the generous part aside.. :P
Sexy: LMAO …… please tell me the website creators are blind….. coz this I DEFF am not! :D
Patriotic: Oh yea…. Totally :D :D
[PLEASE NOTE, it is perched on a precarious 50-50 position …..so, im not really believing it yet!!!]
Impatient and hasty: Yea…. Pretty impatient…and hasty to some extent!....can we like get over this ASAP?
Ambitious: Definitely….yawn… am sleepy already!
Influential in organizations: I would like to believe so…. Then again, who wouldn’t !
Fun to be with: YEP……. My testimonials say so…(got to believe them sometimes at least ;))
Loves to socialize: Hahahahhaha…… well anyone who knows me even remotely, knows I can go into hibernation mode at home for days on end, without seeing the sunlight… so this is definitely a NO-NO
Loves to Party: If having a good time, means partying…., then yes….. if it means “partying” then NO! :P
Loves praises: Why else do u think I am doing this piece of crap? :O :P
Loves attention: Uh huh!!
Loves to be loved: Come on….tell me something MORE Unique…..!
Honest and trustworthy: Yes…. I can be brutally honest at times... and mostly all have been at the receiving end….and yes, I have a way with secrets…. I simply forget them :P
Absolutely….. I am this way….take it or get lost!
Short tempered: 10 mins….. the max I have been without screaming in a mad fit!
Changing personality: YES…. Changes with company…!
Not egoistic: I STRONGLY disagree….. I have an EGO and sometimes, a bit too big ;)
Take high pride in oneself: MAKE UP ur mind yaa….. I just said so…!
Hates restrictions: Remember Paagal Panchi.com??? :P
Loves to joke: Nooooo…… I never joke in my life…. Have always been a tight ass… :P
Good sense of humor: ABSOLUTELY not… can only give the retard a run for their money… the rest don’t even count me in!
Oct 1, 2007
1. Starting with something easy (n not intellectual, hoping you can answer something as!!!! as this) what did you have for breakfast?
Like EVERY true- blue Southie kid on the block….. Breakfast means just one thing…. (Most of the times, at least) and that is Poor old DOSA
2. As a kid you were scared of?
Am still scared of DOGS…… but a thing I was scared of as a kid…but no longer am…has to be the DARK!!!
3. Define the following in one word - (max. 2 words)
Karma – Practical (assuming, ur asking, karma w.r.t. philosophy and not Karmaaa!!! a la Konkani…hehehe ;))
Dictionary – English Teacher
Kids – at home- part time (orkut influence…..lol)
Your PC/ Laptop – my kid! (makes sense??? :P)
4. Something that you crave to eat RIGHT NOW!
Maggi……. the BEST food ever created….and i haven't eaten it since like... STONE AGE :( :(
5. The last person you sent an sms to?
Hahahahhah…….. excuse me, but everyone who knows me, knows that my Cell lost its display in mid June….. and my laziness stops me from repairing it… so in short I am in possession of a walky-talkie…..so no chance of sms at all!!!..... but guess the last sms I had sent to, would be a forward to all my Hutch frnds…(yea, it was still Hutch then… ;)) since it was free pf cost….lol!!!
6. Memorable Rakshabandhan gift received (gals!)/ gifted (guys!)?
Well, has to be in 10th Std….. all my mooh bola bhai’s in school had gifted me wid soooo many things (esp chocolates) , it was one helluva crazy year….. [did I mention, I was a brat then?? ]
7. What colour is your life? n why? (1 colour only, plz)
Ink Blue….. coz that colour signifies a lot of hulchul to me…… and that’s exactly what is happening right now!
8. You see Dhoni buying a Tennis ball @ a Sports shop near your place... you....
Mebbe…… Stop and search for Sree or on other thoughts….. just give a second glance (wink wink…hehehe!!!)
9. Greatest feeling in the world?
To see my friends truly happy, especially when I am going thru a rough phase, and they are happy because of me!!! :D :D
10. Most disgusting thing that you came across..
Should I say it……
Well PDA by a lesbian couple in a Mumbai train…….
(okie… no more qns on this one….!!!)
11. Your fav serial/ match/ film going on ... when BANG! goes the cable.. you
a. switch off TV, Switch on PC n log in to Orkut/ Yahoo etc.
b. Call the cablewala and "@#%$#@"
c. Call up friends and meet at the nearest CCD
None of the above…… ill simply go to sleep or read a good book or better listen to the Radio…. (Fever 104..mind u :P )
12. English is a very funny language because..........?
Bcoz u just gotta read the way Amu and AJ use it…. you’ll know for yourself!!!
13. Current weather reminds you of...............
the songs….. “In Dino” from the movie Metro… and “Comfortably Numb” by Pink Floyd!
14. Have you ever had a crush on your teacher?
You know, grumpy 50 year old, PT teachers were never, at least in my mind….. “Attractive”, you know……
15. 2 lines about this girl called 'Purnima' .... (plz no, ever gigglin, bit crazy, blogs regularly n all...that she already knows.... something that will make her go 'wow! is that true??'... No flattery, negative remarks accepted, just don't be rude :P, honest answers please!)
1. Always pings me when she updates her blog, or rather ONLY when she updates her blog ....:) [Note.... the additional smiley, so that u know, me not rude :P]
2. Is the ONLY Living being (apart from AJ) to have seen the Dinosaurs……. LOL!!!
[here go ur two unique lines, dear……. heheheh!!!.... ]
hope u had a good time reading my answers, coz I deffinately loved answering it….
AND for the tradition to continue, I want to TAG two ppl, who need to get back to Blogging NOW…… and I hope they do, with this tag….. Ashwin and Roshni!!!
Happy Blogging ppl!!! :D
Sep 23, 2007
Recently, the prospect of working closely with a person, who is ‘just-not-like-us’ was suggested, at work… and boy, was I stumped!!
Don’t get me wrong, the person is not really bad or anything…. Actually, I don’t even know the person that well as of now!! But from the moment of the first meet, I began judging the person and somehow I have an impression of the person, as someone I might, in all probability, have trouble relating and working with!! And I don’t even know, why or what made me get this impression….. Maybe it’s the different backgrounds, or just that we did not hit it off that well, at the first meet…..
I have always accepted at being a little bias, towards my friends over others…. Let’s face it, we all are… we happily overlook a mistake our friends make, but if made by an unknown, it is never easily accepted…. Guess it’s natural, maybe to a certain extent, even accepted… At the same time, I also usually have no problem in relating to people of all kinds (as in those who are like me, and those who aren’t like me), because, like it or not, we all need to accept other people and views even if we necessarily don’t agree with them…
But what stood out in this whole incident was the fact that it just bought out the whole façade right in front of my face… and obviously, I didn’t like it one bit! Also, what stuck me, was how limited my exposure to people, in and around me is! Yes, not everyone is like me, or have a similar wavelength, yet, they are some what of a certain section, that I feel and know, I belong to!
I know, at the end of this post, in all probability, people reading it, would be thinking I am some kind of a biased…almost racist person….. but trust me I am NOT…. It’s just that I am yet to learn (and I have a chance in front of me to) to deal and understand and handle people truly representing all the different types of personas and thought processes. Just hope, can do it successfully, and I make more friends along the way! :)
Sep 8, 2007
|'What will your obituary say?' at QuizGalaxy.com|
Just who is this shady guy man!!!.....lolz
|Ten Years: You would get caught, but only because of the guilt you'd feel. You would sign a plea bargain and spend your years in jail feeling really bad about what you'd done.|
Sep 7, 2007
Aug 31, 2007
Aug 17, 2007
Who knew, Mr. Himace obsessed was a fan of Books too...and considering my obsession to live a book - sometimes a tad too literally, guess, i couldn't have had a better tag!!!
SO, friends, here it goes..... if u really care, that is!!!
1. Which is your favorite book? why?
Fav Book : difficult choice between Alchemist and Notes to myself....... simply because both left an impact on me.... and a strong one at that....
2. Which is your favorite comic book?
Ooops..... Garfield and Calvin and Hobbes are my fav cartoons..... no reasons for guessing why!!!
3. Which book has made u fall asleep while reading it? (no textbooks please! Its one of their properties to make people go to sleep!!)
hehehhee....... good one!!! but a book that made me sleep, was this book i read on the ancient Buddhist philosopphy..... dont get me wrong..... its got nothing to do with my views on the philo or anything like that, just that the way it was written......OH GOD!!! still makes me feel sleepy......
(and yea, if u r an insomniac..... lemme know, i can always pass on the book's name for free :D )
4. Has any book made u cry? which one?
hmm..... tuff one..... coz i dont cry that soon!!!
Honestly can't remeber any, at the moment...... will deff update it, once i remember ;-)
5. Has any book made u want to take out ur eyes from their sockets and squish them?
i bychance once laid my hand on a Harrold Robbin novel..... DONT dare ask me the details..... hee hee hee
6. Which fictional book character do u feel resembles u?
Bridget Jones???!!!...... Actually, u shud be tellin me that, Mithun!!! he he he
But, the lead in the book "American Born Confused Desi".... though im neither!!!
7. Which fictional book character do u feel resembles me?(mandatory question,my keyboard took hits for this blog entry, u know!)
Okie..... tuff one, wud have been easier, had i NOT met u, but now that i have, the whole presure of doing justice to u!!!...... 'haay daiyaa'
Maybe, when a Himace Comic book arrives, with a Super-Himace in it...... it'll be fictional enough to be U.......
Seriously, i guess it's gotta be JUGHEAD- the always at ease chap..... hehehheheh!!!
8. Which will you choose?
a. reading a highly entertaining/informative book or
b. going out for an outing with a member of the opposite sex.
Since there are more interesting books than interesting members of the opposite sex, my choices are nevertheless restricted........ watsay???? ;-)
Had fun answering your tag, Mithun...... Thanx for it :)
Jul 25, 2007
1. which song is being played in ur mind rite NOW!
2. one song that describes ur life.... (no self made compositions please!)
3. the song u listen to most on ur i-pod/ MP3/ cell/ PC/ etc
4. a song that describes best the foll stages in ur life:
- school days
- ur mood rite now!!!
5. your all time favorite song, nd the reason for it... mebbe some memory/ some funny story/etc!!!
6. a song u wish u hadn't heard!!! (more than one is always a pleasure!!!)
7. a song that would best describe..... me
(hey, i took pains to tag u, i guess i deserve this ;-) )
8. (i jus cudn't miss this!!!) If, u were in an elevator with Himesh Reshammiya and Altaf Raja, you would..........
(plz plz plz..... something funny!!!)
thee is........ Poo, Ajan, AJ and Mithun!!!
and if u dont know how to go about a TAG, here's how -
-copy these qns and paste them on ur "create post" window
- ans these qns in the same post
-POST it (duh!!!)
and yea, you can then choose to tag sumone else, or the person who tagged you, with same set of qns or new qns!!!
Jul 24, 2007
Jul 16, 2007
Don’t be shocked by this line, if you have a sibling or know a ‘kid’, around you, who is say between 9-12 years of age, you would know what I am talking about! Kids today (at least that is what I still would like to call them) are growing up much faster than their peers, or even we did, a couple of years ago.
Being a witness to my 11 year old cousin’s growing up years is becoming more of a ‘Oh-My-God-What-has-this-come-to’ than a ‘we-were-like-this-only’!!! After all the pool parties, she has gone too (I have just been to one!!) and the sort of fashion trends and style icons her classmates follow, and idolise, more than be angry, I pity them! They have no childhood to speak of! They are obsessed with weight loss, know all the difference between mascara and eyeliners, and are this short of learning about the birds and bees!!!
Yes, I know the immediate next reaction to this argument is, that it is the ill effect of the media…. But hey, even we grew up when there was the media, and we didn’t turn out that bad!! Yes, they are influenced, and media is not the best of teacher of moral values and anything remotely related, but people cannot sit at one place and blame a certain entity, for spoiling the future of the kids!! I guess it’s very important that the parents and guardians take it upon themselves to teach their kids, how to think!! Yes, this is what we are missing today, we teach them values, we expect them to follow it… rather than making them understand as to why a certain thing is important or what is the effect of a certain thing, and then there is also the fact that we as a society refuse to see beyond the superficial. It’s when we stop making comments and wasting so much of our time, discussing Abhi-Ash weddings, and Paris Hilton’s Jail Stints (aaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh!!!!!) as if our economic future depended on it, that we can actually ask our kids to take a different outlook towards the whole situation!
Maybe its easier said than done, and I am in certainly no mood or in a hurry to give a try to parenting (lest you ask: P) but a look at the kids around, and I get a feeling to write this! Especially, as a previous volunteer with kids, and the way I see 11yr olds going about their life, these days, I am scared she and kids like her, don’t turn out to be Paris or Britney or Posh Spice!!!
Jun 24, 2007
Here’s a look at what I saw on the telly last week…..
So, I tune to Star – and there was this Maha-boring Awards show, where everyone was ‘performing’ on stage, called IIFA or something, and trust me, I was only watching it with the hope of Sunny Paaji or Govinda dancing (come on, that’s more fun!). But, my hopes were dashed when Saif Ali chose to imitate Hrithik’s Dhoom Again (failing miserably!) However, I still would have suffered it all, when, they actually went ahead and gave a prize to Upen Patel (WAT!!!!)…. Too much, just too much… I couldn’t handle any more of this!!!
So, I switch to Star World… you can always count on them for some good shows, or so I thought! But what was I dished out…… ‘Getting gooey with gay boy’…. Or what they choose to call it, Koffee with Karan!!! Yea, so I like Konkona and Kunal Kapoor is definitely cute material, but not for heaven’s sake on GB’s show…. where all they would discuss is SRK!... sigh… and I switch again!
Zee…some crap… with some sidey types movie being played and all, deff no fun.
Switch to Sony… Salaam Namaste… the movie that gave my granny a near heart attack….no way hosey!!! (She was aghast that there could be a movie about two people living together without marriage… it was given the ‘WORSE MOVIE EVER’ tag by her in the first half itself)
So, I settled for Sahaara One… to watch something, I wouldn’t be found dead admitting to watch…. a Telugu movie dubbed in Hindi, of the great ‘Chiranjeevi’ called Inder or something…..Yea, the songs were garish and stupid, the movie made no sense, and yes, he hit out at 20 people all by himself, without getting hurt, but atleast I enjoyed myself, because that is what his movie was supposed to be, atleast it didn’t pretend to be a sophisticated chat show or a show of Hindi Movie Industry’s global acclaim…. both of which failed miserably!!!
Yea, and like partying heavily on Sunday’s, weekend telly viewing has its hangover effect too…. I found myself humming Shaka Laka Boom Boom on Monday morning (aaaa!!!) while trying to figure out, if suing the channels for torture was a wise option!!!
And before you dial for the asylum, trust me, I have sworn myself of weekend telly viewing forever!!!
P.S: BUT…… That 70’s Show is back!!! Monday’s 8:30 p.m. on Star World.......
Jun 14, 2007
Here are some random rambling of mine, I wrote when I was experiencing the big J – Jealousy
"Jealousy is all the fun you think they had" - Erica Jong, Fear of Flying, 1973
"Jealousy is the tribute mediocrity pays to genius" - Fulton J. Sheen
"Jealousy is the art of injuring ourselves more than others" - Alexandre Dumas (1802 - 1870)
'After a long time, my words are refusing to take the shape of my emotions….or is it the other way round????
May be my feelings are too strong and so, my opinions are a little too raw and extreme. And expressing them in exact words is not only a bit too difficult, at this current point of time, but also, expressing them, would mean giving them a certain shape and acknowledging their presence. It would mean accepting the fact that I am, as an individual capable of so much negativity and insecurity that the only thing going on in my mind right now, is something that I am not proud of, and wouldn’t want to be associated with. It would mean acknowledging my vulnerability to be controlled by certain emotions that in an ‘oh-so-ideal’ world should not have existed in the first place!!!'
Now, here’s some food for more emotions…….. Uncontrollable emotions!!!
Will update this section as and when I find myself experiencing a strong emotion while being seated before a Computer!!! Hehehehh!!!!
Jun 9, 2007
For the uninitiated (which means, you were living in Honolulu all along…) the movie is based on an actual shootout, one of the first of the Mumbai Police Force, in 1991, of Maya Dolas and his gang, at Lokhandwala, and as a person who grew up in this place, (must have been around 5 years of age, when it happened), I have no memory of this incident, although the excitement with which my parents recount the details of that day make me wonder if I missed being a part of the Great Indian Golden era!!!
Coming back to the movie, its thankfully just a two hour affair, which begins with a sizzle…. The start is very gripping… the Sikh riots, the after effects, and definitely Abhishek!!!(My friend suggested moving out of the theatre on his death!!), and the whole plot which the Director set up, for the actual incident… (However, I still couldn’t figure out how the Sardars were connected to Maya/ Dawood!)
It’s the middle segment that actually is the most interesting part of the movie. Be it Maya’s rise to power and Tusshar’s inclusion in his gang or simply the way the whole underworld and Police force works! A good point of the movie was that it showed the happenings of both the sides equally well…. I mean you don’t sit thinking what the Police are up to when Maya’s men are killing people or vice versa. However, in the process, you stop identifying or following one character, like you would normally do in other movies, thereby preventing you from taking ‘sides’, if I may say so.
However it’s the climax/ ending that is a bit drag. Ok, they had to show all the details of how the Police covered the area, and how the media reported, but some parts were not really necessary, like the gang members going the ‘Oh-My-God-I-Can-Die-too’ way with each other and their families or even the scene between Maya’s mother and A. A. Khan. If it was a little more etched out, yet taut maybe the film would have stayed in the mind longer and in a better way. However on the whole, the film is a must watch if you like Violent movies, or movies which are the classic good wins over bad sorts!
Now the part on all the actors! Firstly, was that Neha Dhupia, as Sanjay’s wife??? :-O I almost died laughing on the pairing! Okie, she doesn’t really have a role, so no more on her. Lets go to Abhishek!!!... small role, no dialogues, could have been done by any one! As for Dia Mirza… firstly, why does she fall in love with any and every police officer who speaks like a warrior?? I mean get real, there aren’t Knights in shining armour anymore! Secondly, apart from that she has no role, at all. Then comes Arti Chabria (I actually took pains to google her name….sigh!)… all I could say is too much cleavage and glycerine, nothing more nothing less!
And now to our heroes!!! Firstly, Rohit Roy can’t act!!! Secondly, Shabbir (ooooooh!) doesn’t look that cute on the big screen, nor does he have that acting skills that can make him stand out. Ravi Gosain and the other guy (sorry, out of patience to google any more names!) were pucca second lead characters. While Amrita Singh suited the character of Maya’s mother, she looked more like his elder sister. Tusshar Kapoor, I am sorry was FUNNY!!! I mean, he is the guy who can do Mujhe Kuch Kehna Hai….. not ‘Buva’, especially the scene where he threatens and then hits Sunil Shetty…. So much for wishful thinking, heheheh! Arbaaz Khan…. God, he is goodlooking, but also is amazingly easy in the role, and brings just what the role required. Sunil Shetty is cool in his typical way, mouthing dialogues in his typical way, and showing just one emotion throughout!
Now the main two…. Sanjay Dutt and Vivek Oberoi! And for me, Sanjay Dutt wins hands down, simply because, he stops being Sanjay Dutt and is A. A. Khan all through the movie, sans exception. You soon forget that it’s just a role, and his character goes well in such roles too. Also, the ‘Old Spice’ Music that follows him in the climax… (sorry to the people in the theatre, who couldn’t hear it, thanks to my laughter!) made him feel like a HERO!!! Vivek Oberoi has acted well, yes, but sometimes, he goes overboard in trying to display Maya’s strength and power, it doesn’t come as easily to him, as it did to say, Ajay Devgan in Company, speaking of which, there were some resemblances to that classic. And I did like Vivek in that movie, I mean we all, 5 giggling underage girls who sneeked into the adult movie, loved it when he blushed in that cute scene with Antara Mali (teenage is crazy!!!) but this movie doesn’t get the same effect on me, as his role in Company did, even otherwise.
So, overall while the movie is a good watch, it does have its flaws. It isn’t a movie that can change or create a sort of impact that other similar movies like Gardish, Company, etc did, but it can be watched just because it ends in two hours, is to the point most of the times and doesn’t preach anything. However you should not go to watch it for its songs..(crazy lines, no music or dance and too much cleavage…shudder!!!) , definitely not for Rakhi Sawant’s special appearance (no, its’ not an item song!) or for some crime history fact finding. It’s a serious movie without being taxing on your brains… no doubt all the guys I knew liked the movie, and recommended it! As for me, when is my DVD copy of Cheeni Kum, coming????
Jun 8, 2007
"We choose our joys and sorrows long before we experience them."
-- Kahlil Gibran
what do you do, when you have to make a choice between what is right and what you want to do???
yes, it's a tough choice for sure, because either ways, there will be disappointment and fear of failure.......
if you do what is right, you regret not being able to do what you wanted......
and if you make the other choice, you know what you have chosen was not the right choice to make........
is it just God's way of making us aware, that we cannot have EVERYTHING???
or is it just that what we consider right and wrong, sometimes might not be applicable for us..... making us reconsider them and our views on the same.......
too confusing..... but all i know is, we are defined by our decisions and we create our future by our choices.....
now if only, one knew how to make a decision and not feel bad or regret not taking the other route!
Finally, a quote that sums it all......
"To decide to be at the level of choice, is to take responsibility for your life and to be in control of your life."
- Arbie M. Dale
Jun 1, 2007
Rains have always been the single most important event in my life, that occur every year…..apart from the annual Dassera celebrations we hold at our home. Since school times, rains have just meant one thing to me…. That is a new start!!! Rains signify start of a new school year, a new college term, a new seson…… but for me, also a chance to make a new beginning…. And yesterday night, when I was so busy, feeling sick and pondering on where I am headed to in life…. the rains couldn’t have had a more dramatic entry, and with lightning and thunderstorms, probably, in an almost “filmy” way!!!
As I was saying earlier, rains have always taught me something in life….. right from helping me realize the unimportance of cribbing (when I had to walk for half an hour in rains, without an umbrella….) to enjoying every single event that takes place (same incident!!) to how harsh nature could be, and how privileged I was…(26/7….. need I say more???) and I am waiting for my lessons this year….. hopefully, they will help me achieve something, I have been wanting to, recently!!!
And being a Mumbaikar, I sincerely hope, we don’t have to encounter 26/7 again ….ever!!! Also, I wish the Rain Gods bless the country….not curse it!
On another note…. I have exams from tomorrow, and I need to be studying at this precise moment….. so, will leave it at that!!!
(p.s.: MUCH against my wishes..... i have been "forced" to stick to one color for my posts.... by some people who are extremely good at blackmailing me
May 29, 2007
But such is life…. sometimes we end up advising people on things we ourselves have absolutely no clue about! (happens all the time with me!). Well I had almost stopped playing this role, because, I actually found better things to do, and suddenly, my friends became mature enough to solve their own love mess…[seems the transition was only temporary though :( ] ….but again I see myself getting dragged amidst fights on ‘you don’t care for me anymore’ to discussions about ‘I think he’s cheating on me’….sigh!!!
I think my role as Love Guru started way back in the 8th std…. when one of my best friends back then, ‘Nee’ started disclosing his crushes to me, and considering that he had a new crush almost every other week, I had to sit through hours of ‘u know what makes this gal spl…..’crap. Although it was fun back then, as I was yet to experience my own “first crush”…. It soon extended to almost all my other friends! Right from V’s 4 year ‘on-off’ relation with a gal, to HP’s heartbreak to my own best friend’s mess….. heard it, know it all, And for once I realized, being a person who can keep secrets well, doesn’t always work in your favour!!
It extended to college too….not withstanding my changing group of friends, I almost knew everyone’s story…and the other half’s version included!! I would really have had no problem helping any of my friends (and some random strangers, too) in solving their problems… if I had any real experience or even an outlook that was suited for these kind of lovey- dovey stuff. But considering the boring practical, almost unromantic views I hold of these relationships, and absolute no intentions, whatsoever of getting into one of these relationships, any time soon, sometimes, I just feel, that my own advise is rubbish! completely withdrawn from what actually might be the reality…… almost like Malabar Hill activists ‘feeling’ for the poor oppressed street people!!!!
I just happened to casually mention this to a friend, and her response was totally crazy, yet made sense. She was like, ‘Since you aren’t into it, you look at it in a practical angle…..which they can’t seem to see.’ ……….hmmm….. So basically Lovers ARE blind, eh!!!.... *evil grin*
And just in case anyone cares to wonder, why I myself am so against luv-shuv…… my mantra is…Life is complicated enough……try to keep it simple, stay single, stay happy, and enjoy!!! :D
May 24, 2007
John Lennon, "Beautiful Boy"
Some experiences in life do create a lasting impact on each of us. You know the sort that let you realise your own possibilities and give you a completely different outlook on life!!
Well my recent trip to Manglore was one such! Actually, my cousin's visit was more of the eye opener...... the trip just served the purpose of helping me realise it better! Well just the two of us went to this crazy place, called 'Dharamasthala' which can be called as a rehab centre
Life was good before i went there, but it just became better, infact much better, and well everyone who knows me, has noticed the difference it's got on me......
You know sometimes you just go through each and everyday in your life, without actually "LIVING" it....unless you get an 'aha!!!" moment, where things begin to fall in the right perspective and you start appreciating, what exactly you have around you? Well had quite a few 'happy realisation' moments in there..... :D
(well the source above isn't really 'my type' of an inspiration........but the quote suits the situation pretty well!!!)Need to put everything down, because there is so much to write.....will get back to doing that later!!!
p.s: just realised..... lots of posts ending wid need to get back later..... am i bad @ time mgmt?? or hv i become a workaholic????
(Saaa nd VJ will deff agre wid me... hv stood them up, u see!!)
Mar 14, 2007
Mar 6, 2007
On the work front.... well, the 2 day break, and a more conscious attempt to keep my attitude more positive, things are looking up after a long long time... i am again, pretty enthusiastic to learn more, to do more work, and achieve my goal!
On the studies front. started bit by bit, studying, making an attempt to work harder than i can, and maintaining my focus
On the personal front..... well, two-three important aspects, to be considered here..... my approach towards my job, and a certain sense of purpose, has brought back the laughter back in my life. A while back, I had turned into a screaming machine - snapping at everone and everything, putting glum faces, doing nothing, etc..... slowly but surely I am turning "NORMAL" again!
Secondly, certain things have seemed to fall into place for me now. I need to mainatin a balance between my personal and professional life....I need to start meeting my friends again, do things, I used to do earlier..... hang out again (been ages since i did that!)..... also i need to get out of this virtual world, which i had created for myself! I mean, its great, but deff no substitue for the real! To think about it, I myself, am not the same way, as I project to be online, then how can I expect, or even think that the other person, sitting somewhere, far away from me, is what he/she projects????? Dont get me wrong here. made some good friends, genuine people, who bring a smile during the day, but is that enough for my existence???? And lets be honest, it might not even last that long, you know! So i deff need to go out, take some pains, to maintain relations, and shed some inhibitions!
Speaking about inhibitions, my resolve, to try shedding my attitude, and smiling and speaking to people whom I know, isn't working :( Maybe I am a li'l scared that the response wouldn't be so good, or may be I'm not motivated enough, but its currently not working....... need to think and resolve that one!
Well, just this for now...... dont have enough time to delve on "everything" going on through my brains, right now, but ya...gotta post laters!