My current state of mind

Well, another week passed away! and this was one of those weeks where nothing much was happening around me, but a lot was being played on in my mind, amidst my attempts to clear my mind clutter (its starting to sound like Chappell's process now, hee hee hee) ,here is something that I am feeling about my life in general, as it exists now....

On the work front.... well, the 2 day break, and a more conscious attempt to keep my attitude more positive, things are looking up after a long long time... i am again, pretty enthusiastic to learn more, to do more work, and achieve my goal!

On the studies front. started bit by bit, studying, making an attempt to work harder than i can, and maintaining my focus

On the personal front..... well, two-three important aspects, to be considered here..... my approach towards my job, and a certain sense of purpose, has brought back the laughter back in my life. A while back, I had turned into a screaming machine - snapping at everone and everything, putting glum faces, doing nothing, etc..... slowly but surely I am turning "NORMAL" again!

Secondly, certain things have seemed to fall into place for me now. I need to mainatin a balance between my personal and professional life....I need to start meeting my friends again, do things, I used to do earlier..... hang out again (been ages since i did that!)..... also i need to get out of this virtual world, which i had created for myself! I mean, its great, but deff no substitue for the real! To think about it, I myself, am not the same way, as I project to be online, then how can I expect, or even think that the other person, sitting somewhere, far away from me, is what he/she projects????? Dont get me wrong here. made some good friends, genuine people, who bring a smile during the day, but is that enough for my existence???? And lets be honest, it might not even last that long, you know! So i deff need to go out, take some pains, to maintain relations, and shed some inhibitions!

Speaking about inhibitions, my resolve, to try shedding my attitude, and smiling and speaking to people whom I know, isn't working :( Maybe I am a li'l scared that the response wouldn't be so good, or may be I'm not motivated enough, but its currently not working....... need to think and resolve that one!

Well, just this for now...... dont have enough time to delve on "everything" going on through my brains, right now, but ya...gotta post laters!