Jul 15, 2010
Letter to my love
Dec 31, 2009
Current Status: Decluttering in Progress
The more lost you are the more you have to look forward to. So what do you know? I'm having a great time and I don't even know it.
Cheers !
09 lessons of 2009
Hello people, been a real long time since i had a chance to blog about something which i felt like writing about! There have been quite a lot of things happening of late, plentiful things which have had much of an impact, on me, but wasn't sure i would be comfortable writing about every small (relatively) thing happening in my life! (WTH, am just giving a reason for my procrastination :P ) And after spending a year, in which i turned 24, got a few more grey hair, re-discovered a couple of philosophies, became a Company Secretary, discovered what hostel life can be, made a few good new friends, lost touch with quite a few, saw most of my close ones getting married/ committed/ engaged, etc and had real trouble adjusting to the change in my position and expectations of people around me and myself, changed to the point i couldn't recognize my own self in the mirror, had a lowdown, and returned, celebrated my birthday for the first time in the last three years, and probably will 'not-be-studying' for the New Years, in an equally long gap, this year has taught me quite a lot! Not that i had an absolutely amazing time or anything, but i wouldn't substitute it for anything!
Dec 9, 2009
if you're happy and you know it
well, i think i found the single most important key to happiness: Gratitude !
If you have something to be happy and thankful for... remember it! chances of you getting depressed, dejected et all would just fly away!
and if all else fails... remember to thank Him, for you're still breathing :) :)
so.... clap your hands people... you know there are people who would kill to be where you and i are !!
ohh.... by the way.... 99th Post :D
Jul 27, 2009
quirks' of fate!
Jul 25, 2009
One upon a time...
I am terribly cranky and pissed today!.... Don't ask me why!
Jul 16, 2009
Law's of relations...
“Every Action always has an equal and opposite reaction” – Isaac Newton
Relations are really like an outstretched rubber band! To snap it, or to use it, it has to be handled in the same manner at both the ends. If both sides are pulled, it snaps… if both sides keep it steady, it stays on…. And if one side keeps pulling, while the other side does nothing, it will still snap! But then, it’s not the other side breaking it, it’s the force of the snapping side itself acting against it, while all you are doing then is watching the band break itself…..
So, what do you do then?... Do you tell the other side, to stop pulling? Do you start pushing or pulling; depending on what you think is right then?? Or do you just watch it break?
Maybe, just maybe…. It’s better to let nature take it’s own course… don’t you think?
Jun 14, 2009
hey, i watch chick-flicks too...
But today, am going to write, something, anything, nothing!! Ofcourse, I am not making sense, but I am writing (I might need to see a doc after this).
Anyways, I watched a movie after a really long time today! Thanks to the strike and the absolutely pathetic movies releasing prior to the commencement of the strike, it had been quite a while since I set foot in a theatre! The last time I had entered a theatre, well, someone was still in India, someone was still alive, I hadn’t met a few people, and our house was nearing eight years of neglect and no-repair!
Anyways, the movie I saw was a sweet and a very typical ‘chick-flick’ called Bride Wars! Now, before you smirk and judge me, let me tell you, it’s the sort of movie I would secretly watch on Star Movies, and never admit it (heck, I just did!!), but I couldn’t have found a better movie to watch with my best friend! Also, it’s a very ‘in-the-right-frame-of-mind’ movie, if you are not feeling ‘girlie’ enough (don’t ask me what that’s to mean), this would be a bore, cardboard cut out of any other movie from the same genre!
Without giving away too much, let me tell you what the movie does have – two cute ‘best friends’, gorgeous almost-perfect boyfriends & secret lovers, and loads of emotional and funny moments* and thankfully, the movie DOESN’T HAVE is a vamp, a love triangle and unnecessary drama! A perfect watch for all you girls out there before you start your stressful and hectic week! And for heaven’s sake, leave the poor guys out of this one, because, they won’t have a clue what is so funny, when two friends meet to bitch about someone, or what is so touching when one of them decides to do something ‘awwwwww’ for another!
The movie has a simple message – some relations and friendships are forever, don’t let your ego get in the way, because you would be doing as much damage to yourself, as to the other person and the relation! Reminds my college professor’s words, which I cherish till date – is your friendship/ relation so frail and cheap that something so simple can break it? Alternatively, do think when you give something as much importance to let it affect your view and assumption on someone, if it’s all really worth it?... really, is it?
* applicable only for giggling girls...
oh, also, i know this post totally makes me sound like a dumb blonde, but let me tell you, the black's an original!
Jun 5, 2009
random thoughts... part (lost count)
ever so often to stop and breathe and realise we are still only alive, but don't feel so?
why do we need to fix an appointment with self to sit and sort out our emotions and head, rather than just feel them?
................ searching for answers :)
Jan 21, 2009
when did 'THAT' happen??
And then suddenly, you look around to find that most of your social contacts are either married or engaged to be or plan to, in the coming year!... at 22-23!... seriously?!
Seriously, when did they designate 2009 as the year of “marriages” ??... when did THAT happen?
Oct 19, 2008
its transitional....
But not for long, new people turn up, new incidents take place, new memories are built and old incidents and people, who once were a ‘part’ of your life, now come under the heading of ‘experiences’ !!
Such is life… it simply goes on! :) :)
Sep 16, 2008
What was it again ?!!
There has been a lot of talk on this for too long now, and though most have had their say, I am still unconvinced with their versions on it! I have friends for whom it’s a living reality, so to speak… a few others, who rant a lot about it, especially on their blog and stuff… and going by the number of weddings I have been attending, I presume ‘Love’ is well, everywhere right now!
Yeah, I am writing about it… and before anyone with their over fertile imagination begins, let me say, this is not based on any personal experience or stuff, and neither am I in love or planning to get married or anywhere remotely close! So, disclaimers done, here are my views on this pretty vague topic!
I have always found talks on love rather bemusing! For I believe people most often do confuse ‘love’ as an emotion with ‘relations’ that it gets into existence! Yes, these are, according to me, two rather distinct and separate things. Love in itself, is an emotion, and a very positive one at that, that touches people at different times in their lives towards different people. It is not that complex, if you see it all by itself. Love is not about holding hands or spending time together. The funny part of emotions is that, inspite of being universal, it still is very individualistic for each person, in himself, and the same holds true for love. It leaves a mark on each of us, in its own distinct way. Its something that stays with you, even when the person may not be around. Its something, which once it touches you, changes you forever, in one way or another. Love just needs to be felt, and acknowledging its existence within you, is enough to make you feel good about yourself and things around you! It’s a bond between those involved that surpasses time and space. Love doesn’t fear saturation; it just evolves, in its own terms, in its own varied forms and shapes. It doesn’t demand anything anything, even love in return. Just as you wouldn’t expect jealousy from a person you are jealous of, love doesn’t expect love from its object of affection, which is why it’s the emotion of giving. Its about being aware of the fact that we are capable of giving and sharing so much of ourselves as individuals without expecting much in return. Its not about worrying, if this would last, but its about knowing, that this will!
Relations, on the other hand, are a different ball game altogether. It is very funny, if you notice, how God’s simple emotion can be turned into a complex structure by man’s creation of relations. I am not against relations, mind you, but its sure stupid, when people equate the nature of the relations with the proportion of love. Love doesn’t need a relation to sustain it. It stays with a person, till the person is capable of emoting, in a way or another. Relationships, on the other hand, require love at their core to keep them going. While love is an emotion by itself, relationship is a commitment, an intention between the parties involved, to shape the bond or love shared between them into something distinct and unique. Relations more often than not, are based on our ‘need’ to be loved, more than our love towards the other person. And it is precisely this need that raises expectations and complicates things between two people, who may actually and truly love each other. More often than not, we hurt people we love the most, because, we expect the most from them. This is not saying that the love ceases to exist, it is just when the normal and human instincts getting better of us, than the emotion. The love still stays, just in a rather dormant form within! Like I said, we humans just love complicating things, and most often than not, we do!
Figuring out if something is love or not, well is a different question all by itself, and although I cant say much on that, I can just ask you to NOT rely on movies or books for any direction in this regard. Life doesn’t give you background music, or stormy indications like lightening or flashes and stuff, but it does give you something, a movie might never…. A smile on your face and a song in your heart!
With all this crap, I end my lecture on the MOST over rated topic of the century!
Note: This author is partly delusional and would not always want to be associated with this post. So beware!
Aug 3, 2008
hmm...
receive an e-mail, check the subject, i dont read ahead.
some sentimental offlines, i dont reply.
tell people to call me, and then realise got nothing to speak.
to avoid the confusion, get my ears glued to the music on my cell phone, 24*7.
haven't picked up my law books in weeks.
avoiding meeting people other than the core group.
disliking movies that are actually pretty ok, otherwise.
cribbing, and then realising the folly of it all.
getting irritated with people for no reason at all.
giving the reason of being "too busy" for almost everything.
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aah... the existential angst of an eternal escapist!
(need to start making amends for it all!)
Jul 3, 2008
Back to Blogging!
Well, currently, I am in one of those times in life, which can be called as a ‘transition phase’. A very memorable and eventful phase of my life seems to be receding into the background, along with all the people and experiences, it gave me. The imminent phase is also making its presence felt, and it is only meaning new people, and new experiences! A personal observation, that holds true for me is, if you observe closely, u will always find Life with all of its elements at work… ALWAYS! With all its little detailing and effects they have on you, and the people around you, life is always playing its game, silently, making its presence felt. We are usually so engrossed in playing it right, or getting through life, we forget to live it, or worse colour its game with all our assumptions, presumptions and judgments, that what may seem as a “reality” to us, is nothing but a perception of our outlook to the way things should be rather than the way things actually are or the way, it is intended to be! Just like DD’s friend says… “Life is Free, Jeene ka!”(lol)… All we need to do is observe, and we can very well understand how things are happening, and many a times, with all its reasoning too!
I read a very beautiful book recently, titled “The Inner Courtyard” which contained short stories by Indian Women Writers. Although each of them was unique, inspiring in its own way, and completely moving, at this moment, a short story by one of the authors, who describes, how living each moment, and then letting go completely of that moment, without any apprehensions, can save one a lifetime of regrets, stands out, for the way its simplistic philosophy can actually work wonder in all our lives!
(This is a serious post, after a long long time… so anything OTT, kindly adjust maadi! :P)
May 22, 2008
He and Me.... Forever!
I can assure you, it wasn’t love at first sight! Simply because I was way too small and don’t even remember when I first lay my sight on him. But it is love, alright! Mind you, I am not the first person to have fallen for him; he is way too good looking to go unnoticed for this long, and considering that his fan following cuts across all age barriers, insecurity is definitely an issue I am learning to handle! :)
Unlike other times, my first impression was that which left me frightened… yeah… I can be irrational at times! But slowly and surely, it changed. In spite of hearing a lot about his charm and exuberance, I was always sceptical to give him a chance to be a part of my life, to give in to his ways, of which I had heard a lot. Yet, his presence in my life and sequence of events cannot go unnoticed. He was always there, calm, quite, sometimes extremely turbulent, but always leaving an unmistakable impact on my mind, wooing me in his own unique way, sometimes serenading a beautiful rhythm, sometimes, astounding me with his extreme calmness (which can be really deceptive, mind you!)
It had been ages since I had seen him… and they say, ‘absence makes the heart grow fonder’, turned out to be true in my case too! :) I was missing him a lot, and when I was told, that he would be there on my recent road trip to Malvan, I jumped at the opportunity to meet him, to see him, sans a second thought!... and when I finally did meet him, after so many years, I knew it was love forever! I still remember how he looked in the middle of the full moon night, amidst the flurry of activity by the fisher folk around him, he was there, silent, charming, singing his own song, welcoming me, with all his beauty, I felt like the most beautiful and spoilt female on earth! : D… that is until I lay my eyes on him, at 5:30 a.m. against the beautiful sunrise on the Konkan landscape! (Trust me, I had goose bumps!!)
And yet yesterday, with a very heavy heart, I had to bid him adieu! Leaving him behind was like leaving a part of me. Staying together was impossible, but I did promise to return to him, frequently, as much as possible, and I sure hope I do! (It isn’t a promise I want to break anytime forever!)
Here’s to my love, THE SEA !!
Apr 24, 2008
Summer and Spice
So, here I go telling you in short, what all you would have read about, had I put each of my thought on this page…
Starting with the last week’s prompt for blogging was triumph and victory. Thought of composing a poem about a mother talking to her unborn… and realised poetry is no joke! After writing my thoughts in a prosaic fashion, getting back to rhyming words, is well, difficult! Heck, I couldn’t muster two lines that seemed to rhyme, forget a whole poem… lol!
Then, I met Shantala… and after knowing her for close to a year, our meet was more like two long lost friends meeting after ages! The way we connected, spoke and felt as comfortable as fast friends do, only asserted the fact, that there is no dearth of crazy people around me (sans attitude)… hee hee! Especially since we know each other because of an equally maniac individual who we like to call “Snake Charmer”!
Ohh… I got a new haircut done from one of the “pretty expensive” salons in the city… the ones’ which even give u itemised billing sorts and make you feel great! While the experience was strictly “OK” and the whole thing left me with a hole in my pocket… yet I enjoyed it! The cut’s looking good, and it sure suits the summer, but… how long would the cut last on my hair, is definitely something that will determine if there’s anything more to these parlours than just plain glamour! I am not being bald-faced here ;), but anyone who has seen me, knows that I have a mop on my head which is plain wild and untamed! Trust me… it’s all over the place and more often than not, outgrows a hairstyle before you could say ‘Nice Hairdo’!! And like I mostly say, the day I find a solution to my hair, is the day I attain moksha… No kidding!!
Oh yea… you must have noticed (unless you are blind ofcourse), I changed the template of my blog… and did it all by myself! Boy am I proud!! :D … Do leave in your comments on the same, and any suggestions to change any stuff, are welcome too :)
And the latest thing… which may find its way into the snippets… is my colleague DD’z fascination for this absolutely “idiotic and dirty” song from the movie ‘Race’…. Listen to the damn song… it’s so stupid, it just refuses to get out of my head! And now I’m stuck with singing “chika chika… ah hah ah hah” : (No you won’t get what I am talking about, unless you hear it… just click on the link… I kept it for a reason!!) Just imagine a colleague of yours trying his best to ace such a song, and that too with a very endearing honesty… as if he’s the next Indian Idol… you get the point?
And amidst all of this laughter and noble happenings… I leave you with a thought…
WHAT IF… in ‘Sholay’ (obviously the OLD one…heck no one saw the new one!!)… the following people played the characters…
Dharmendra was played by Himesh Bhai…. How would he say… Basanti in kutton ke saamne mat naachna??
And what if that Basanti was played by our very own Rakhi Sawant?? Would she dance, just to avenge her Nach baliye loss?? :P
How would it be, if Hangal was deaf instead of blind?? Would he then say… “itna andhera kyun hai, bhai??”
And… what if…. Just imagine… Gabbar was played by the great Keshto Mukherjee… you know the guy who laughed liked ‘eeh hee hyaaa eeh hee hyaaa’ (thx Poo for telling me the exact pronounciation)…. How would he go about talking to his people??
Ok!! I guess enough nonsense to make up for a whole missing week…. Take Care and Have fun! :D
Mar 28, 2008
Relationships....
As I sit to write this piece on relationships, it’s amazing to know the sort of inputs that my mind is giving me. Twenty two years of existence in a human society bonded by relations that create, define and even have the power to destroy you, makes me wonder, what is a relationship?
The easiest answer would be: to each his own. I agree that all of us have a perspective that is unique to our surroundings and our observations of the society. Yet at the end of the day, there surely has to be some common thread that binds each of our views…. Don’t we all love our parents? Wish to be married and want kids and a family; want a friend who is there in our times of need? The answer to this unique similarity that each of us share is the question that arises in my mind the most… what are relations?
For me, a relationship, between two individuals was always more about how they bonded, and shared, be as friends; relatives or even enemies (don’t enemies share a common hatred towards the other?) But as I experience more people and different relations, I understand that at the end of the day, for any individual, a relationship is not about two people, but about just one … me! It is precisely my actions, thoughts and attitude that determine the relation I would be sharing with the other person. If I choose to trust someone, forgive another, or simply possess a callous attitude towards the third, isn’t it the determining force of the nature of the relation I could be sharing with that person? Yes, my attitude and thoughts would be affected, as any other human beings, on the actions and supposed intention of the other person, not to mention the difference that two distinct backgrounds could make in any relation, but at the end of the day, isn’t the conscious awareness that accompanies our action deciding the status of our relation?
For a person like me, who has few close and truly cherished friends and relations in my personal life, (I don’t dislike the rest – am unable to hate someone; I just cannot find common ground with them) each relation I have shared with any human, in whatever capacity, be it a daughter, a sister, a friend, a colleague or even a plain well wisher, it has been a process of self discovery. Every time a conflict or a situation arises, and my immediate reaction, towards the other persons’ thoughts, actions or even the situation itself, has been an eye opener in understanding what sort of a person I am by nature. Quite a few times, I have surprised myself, not only with delight, but a few times, in shame. I may not be able to change a few of my inhibitions and innate qualities, but being aware of them has only made me realize, how much there is to improve in me as a person!
The reason I am writing this piece is partly known only by four people I am close to, while the other half, I am as yet figuring out! Yet I would really appreciate it, if any rather all of you, drop in a word telling me about your perspective on relations…. Would really love to hear your views!!
Rachana
Mar 25, 2008
I'll be there for you! :)

Here are a few that made me shut up !!
Man is a knot into which relationships are tied. ~Antoine de Saint-Exupéry, Flight to Arras, 1942, translated from French by Lewis Galantière
Remember, we all stumble, every one of us. That's why it's a comfort to go hand in hand. ~Emily Kimbrough
Assumptions are the termites of relationships. ~Henry Winkler
You can kiss your family and friends good-bye and put miles between you, but at the same time you carry them with you in your heart, your mind, your stomach, because you do not just live in a world but a world lives in you. ~Frederick Buechner
Are we not like two volumes of one book? ~Marceline Desbordes-Valmore
Trouble is part of your life, and if you don't share it, you don't give the person who loves you enough chance to love you enough. ~Dinah Shore
Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some stay for a while, leave footprints on our hearts, and we are never, ever the same. ~Flavia Weedn, Forever, © Flavia.com
Lots of people want to ride with you in the limo, but what you want is someone who will take the bus with you when the limo breaks down. ~Oprah Winfrey
Soul-mates are people who bring out the best in you. They are not perfect but are always perfect for you. ~Author UnknownPeople change and forget to tell each other. ~Lillian Hellman
Once the realization is accepted that even between the closest human beings infinite distances continue, a wonderful living side by side can grow, if they succeed in loving the distance between them which makes it possible for each to see the other whole against the sky. ~Rainer Maria RilkeYou cannot be lonely if you like the person you're alone with. ~Wayne W. Dyer
Mar 13, 2008
I WANT TO .....
Visit those beautiful memories from the past…
Make even better memories for my future…..
Remember what it was like to be incredibly happy....
Cry uncontrollably over something trivial, and have someone console me….
Talk about the pettiness and the complexities of life… talk my heart out, with some one who listens...
Pack everything up and make a trip down to OZ….
I want to take a ride with the wind running through my unruly hair….
Smile at strangers and make someone's day...
Give Life a chance to make me happy...
Believe in those fairy tales...
Sing before an audience, without a worry...
Scream my lungs out standing in the middle of the road...
Act crazy.... Be ME !
FEEL ALIVE !Feb 20, 2008
things about people that really really (really!) irk me...
- acting apologetic and nice at the drop of a hat !! (focus on "acting" bit)
- thinking that we "lesser mortals" are born to serve them (or atleast keep listening to their stories!!)
- people who constantly complain (give me a break ... maybe the problem is actually U !!)
AND MY PET PEEVE
- people who act stupid to get away from doing anything ... ( hint: check the work place !!)
Now u know why the call me an anti-social ! hee hee hee
