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Well there is a scene in the movie "StepMom", in which, Julia Roberts asks her step daughter, who is being bullied by a guy, to take a decision..... of either sitting there crying, or doing something about solving the problem! A really simple scene, now when i think of it, but back then when I saw it, well, it did create a WOW moment for me!

Many a times, in our lives, we live those moments, when we just want to give up.....just leave everything, go home or some safe place and cry and scream our head out, to the world at large, for being so bad at us! It is usually, at these times, that i still remember the scene, and over the times, i have just realised one thing - the world around us, and Life in general, is never going to be rosy, but how we chose to face it, and what we do of the circumstances around us, make a hell lot of a difference! It is one of those things, that has helped me to move on, face the music, just keep going , hoping for a better tomorrow and I know, that one day, this will pay off. In a weird which way, it also makes me feel good about the fact, that when i was given a choice, i chose to face it and fight it out, than go to a corner and cry, and somehow everything around just feels fine, because, somewhere, within me, i know, that i can face this too!

(p.s.: sorry for the too much of I, me, Myself)

Post Mortem

wierd weekend....... infact the past week itself has been wierd!

on the one hand, i have been able to start clearing the clutter in my brain, and taking things in the positive stride, adopting a new approach...... AND on the other hand, my results get announced and, well, not surprising, i do not clear!

But, i am not really, down in the dumps....... simply because, i realised that miracles dont happen..... yup, me passing would have been nothing short of a miracle..... and since that did not take place, my belief in hard work has only strengthened!

this may sound really wierd, but i am happy, that i flunked! seriously! i mean, it has given me an opportunity to excel.... its a blessing in disguise! 'coz, with my current state of mind, if i had cleared, it would have meant, a new change.....and i know, i am not ready for it!

Ofcourse, everyone else i know, cleared..... :) but, the point i always make is, my journey is MINE! and if, my pace is slow, its OK, i mean, im confident of doing what i want, and somehow, my morale is helping me, reach there...... and deff the fact that i have yet not achieved what i want, just indicates one thing for me - i have yet quite some things to learn, before, i achieve what i want!

on the upside, well, i am almost excited and pumping with energy, to start studies again..... and give it my best shot! there is a wierd, almost power giving high, in achieving something, being the dark horse and racing ahead opf others, who feel you are down in the dumps..... and trust me, i luv that feeling.... just hope i am not addicted to that cycle!!!!

And yea, other thing, well, met a person, i had given unnecessary importance in my life, for quite sometime, and you know, how we always feel, when someone is no longer a part of your life..... abt "what if..", "how i wish...", etc.... well, that came to an end! because one look at him, and i knew i was a blessed child to not have him, as a part of my life anymore!

Phew, enough for now, got a couple of more stuff going on in my mind, hopefully, will post them laters!